screwed up

i've screwed up once, screwed up twice.. now i'm screwed again... Don't i ever learn my lesson?! (though the messes are irrelevant to each other) but in general, all these shit started by being too nice, too generous.. Guess i can't cope with the fact that after being nice, i do not get reciprocated and in fact i get ripped off and taken for granted.

I vow to learn to love myself and not let anyone take me for a ride anymore. My new journey will start on 1 Aug... I hope i don't screw it up the fourth time...